Long time no Blog, or, Meh!

Today my sister asked me if I was still writing and I had to admit that I did not know what to write. Not because nothing happened, I mean, you know, I lead a happening Life! No, because I have no progress or regression to report. Just ongoing Meh… So, apologies in advance, this Blog…

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Therapy Part 3. Gettin’ the Boot!

Warning up top: This Blog has become more negative then intended. Plus seriously, how often can the subject of Peanut Butter come up.. Apologies in advance.  It happened, I wore out my Therapist! Or at least, she cannot help me anymore is what I am told. It is a strange story that is quite common…

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Ladies night, or, One Step forward Two Steps back.

To say that my Life (yes with a capital L!) has been going through some changes in the past weeks or months is an understatement. It has been a regular whirlwind. Usually I survive these whirlwinds just fine. It is after the wind dies down that my personal turmoil begins. This is the kind of…

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On Entertaining the Kid and the Horror of the child “friendly” cafe.

Another weekend, another planning session on what activities to do with the Kid in full swing. You see, the Kid is a city dweller and does not have a garden to go crazy in. Like most parents in the city I need to take him out raging to get rid of some of the obnoxious…

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Friday night.

I’ve threatened to write a blog about Friday Nights for a long time. They are just not what they used to be. Right now, it is 19:10 on a Friday night. I am on the couch keeping one eye on the television where a “Midsomer Murders” (no I am not kidding) is doing its thing.…

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Food Phobia’s

The mind is insane sometimes. I cannot speak for others, but my mind can make its own truths. Even when I know something did not happen or is not going to happen, my mind somehow does not accept that. It seems to run on two tracks. Track one: “nothing is wrong with that plate of…

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New Year’s Intentions.

After hyperventilating myself through Christmas and hibernating through the lull before New Year’s Eve I actually dragged myself to a party for the happy occasion and promptly made it to bed at 00:05. I was there to see it happen though, 2018 is finally here! 2017 was quite a year, a year that kicked my…

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The call of the Womb.

In the spirit of Christmas and Mary’s immaculate conception I thought I would spend some time writing about this magical womb of ours (ladies) and the hormones that seem to rule our lives. Yes Guys, you can stop reading now. Although, you never know, you might learn something. Plus, to be honest, our hormones rule…

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It’s Complicated.

I realise that over the course of this Blog it must have seemed like the Kid has no Father. That is not the case. The Kid has a great papa, who takes good care of him. Between us, things are complicated and that is why I made the choice not to mention him. It would…

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Tad bit Negative.

Of course I was aware, but after reading through my previous posts the other night I realised, again, that I am quite a negative person. Sarcasm, Irony, Cynicism, I’ve got them all down. It is positivity I have a hard time with. I mean, there is so much stuff in life that is damn annoying.…

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New Year’s Eve.

Today is the 1st of December. The jolliest month of the year has started and so has the nightmare of figuring out with whom and how to spend these days. Christmas is usually quite easy, you hop from friends to family to friends, eat too much, watch All you need is Love and eventually pass…

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Insecurities. or. Who am I?

Lately I have been quite insecure about a few too many things. Mainly about the way I look, the way I act and how my anxiety, mom-hood and ageing have changed me. I am wondering, how much of the me I used to be, is actually left now? I think the insecurity started once I…

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Mama Day.

Yes, he is the best thing that ever happened to me. Yes, I love him more than I have ever loved anything or anyone else. But for fuck sake this child rearing business is not as easy as people make it out to be. I think I must have been spared the terrible two’s since…

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Meds day 179. Memories..

I have been popping pills for 179 days. Make no mistake, before that I also used an extraordinary amount of Oxazepam (tranquillisers). It is probably about more than a year ago that I did not need, or at least, take any pills. But since I started taking Citalopram I have had exactly 179 in varying…

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When the floodgates open.

I have always wanted to be a pretty crier. Since I do so much of it, that only seems fair. One of those girls who can casually let tears roll down their alabaster skin, no redness, weird mouth action or just plain face meltdown. All waterproof all the time. Unfortunately, I am not that, I…

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